A note of Love!

I love him and he is not my husband!

Yeah keep guessing.
I first had heard about this man when I was dating and when I was about to get married.
PP was all priases about him and would go on and on about his Role model..and I wondered why would someone have a role model at the first place. May be coz I dint have one ;)
I was overwhelmed with the fact that PP had one :P and wondered, if he had a role model then why is he so weird n off beat, may be even his role model is.
I surely knew he must be as uncanny as I imagined him to be.

Right before our marriage PP said .. Ok lets go to my Brother's house in Assam for HM. I was like What??? No ways. Repeat your sentence to see if it makes any sense to you!
Am not gonna honeymoon in your brother's place for god sake. :P and finally that idea slipped our minds due to many tensions and we decided Goa is the best bet for the time we could afford:)

All I knew about this person was he was my husband's favourite.. for what reason? I dint know much about it as I hardly even knew about Pankaj's family background.
My first interaction with him was through email where i said Pranam Bhaiya, hope u recognize me these are my wedding pics.. :P
the feeling in my heart was weird then, interacting to all new set of people with new expectations.

My first meet with him was in Ranchi on Dec 11th for our wedding Reception. That episode of first visit to Ranchi wass abnormally dreadful for me.
abnormal probably because of my reactions to situations, people and the traditions. I was all alone and no one from my family had accompanied me.
My sister and family who had booked their tickets had to cancel as my sister was expecting her second child. My entire travel to Ranchi was a quiet one (so not me), giving a feel of a gal being abducted to marry in a unseen village of Jharkhand
(again it was my imagination). Less did I know that I was to meet the most important person of my life. My visit to Ranchi was good because of this man and a few other very important family members. At the very first meet I knew that I could open up to him and spill my heart out.
That is kind of filmi .. isnt it.. but its a fact. He came across to me as the most mature and open minded person I had ever seen in my Life. Now that was a great feeling for me, one of its kind and the first of its kind.

After our Ranchi trip, i projected my life to be enough traumatized to be associated to a Bihari culture. I even made a statement I would never go back there again and meet any people. Though I have recovered from those feelings and been a real good wife :P

I started being in touch with this special man and every time I have interacted I have been in awe with him, with the way he narrates life's stories and the way he looks at life!
not too late, I fell in love.. totally and that is unexplainable!! Most people in family do wonder why I am so in love with him and just derive an answer that because my husband loves this man, I too love him.
but No.. wait.. thats not the reason. you cant fall in love with someone because you are asked to or u r expected to. LOVE IS DIVINE. IT JUST HAPPENS.. and yeah a little blind too.. (the blind one is for Pankaj :P)..I had all the reasons to love this person and its a special heart to heart connect.

I would always be thrilled to call him and talk to him, listen to him and would crave to meet him too but that hardly happened. We again met at my BIL's wedding for a short while but i thouroughly enjoyed the meet. Time flies with him..

My talks would be endless and I would blabber anything n everything to him. :) now thats being comfortable. While the entire world would complain I would not call
or talk to them I spoke to my favourite person so happily always. I met him again in July 2012 and he finally planned for a vacation to bangalore :)
what more could I ask. I was on top of the world. Spent 3 days in Bangalore with all 3 night outs.. and then We went to Goa and had one of the best trips. Its hard to see Pankaj happy in someone's company but when this someone is around Pankaj is the happiest man :)
and now.. so am I.. the happiest girl..

By now you would know that he is a very very special and important person in my life. I speak to him when I have a happy news or for that matter even a sad news. when am happy and when am down. all the important progress in life is first updated to him.
the next time around I met him is not for a good reason. He was unwell and was to be operated on gall bladder. I went to Delhi for his operation and was with him for a week. How I felt to see him in such grave pain, I will keep it with me.
he then got better and was back to normal health. Very few times I pray so hard and this time around I prayed real hard for his well being.

Soon I was super happy and glad as he had to visit Bangalore for some training. When you love someone so much these things do happen. It was his first official visit to Bangalore and one of its kind.
spent around 5-6 days with him. Showed him my city. for the first time Felt so happy seeing my own city. Coz I was with someone who is so special for me.
He left and I had had the best times with him.

We soon decided to move to Aus, and I could not go away without meeting him. A plan to visit Pankaj's parents and this special someone was made. I just waited to reach their house and I was so happy when I did. Had a great time there and also went on a small vacation, which as per me has been the best till date. Leaving him was painful and I did cry lots. But may be the distance is what keeps the love intact.

I still continue to talk to him, his love and his best wishes makes me so happy coz there are hardly people who wish us truly and who wish to see us happy. He is just those one off person, who wants to see me happy and isnt bothered about whether I buy a house or make kids or not. Though he would be the happiest for every progress in our lives.

This special day he turns an year older and he enters his golden year of 50. I truly wish him the very best in his life, a healthy and a prosperous life!

Love you lots bhaiya.
Take care of yourself and you are one of the most important person in my life

Love
Rupa

An year gone by!

well, its been an year since I came to Aus. So many new things have happened, new lessons learnt. Not sure how it has been though. I cant rate it on a scale.
Have I been a happier person? have I been a better human being? Have I learnt lots in an year?
Not sure. May be I'm a little less happier. I feel so.
May be I miss my parents, may be I miss the love and care I got from my mum and dad. But all said and done, life keeps changing itself and I have to change myself to suit to it.
Why do we do so many changes to our lives and why dont we just stay the way we were.. what am I chasing in life. I dont know. And I dont want to know.

The world is a playground!

A place is never bad, its the people who live in it make it good or bad. Any place at large can be good to everyone, if few goons (racists/jobless jerks/troublemakes/AHs/Bstds call what you like) are taken out of the system. Even otherwise, we should not let these minors impact us in any negative way.The entire world is a home as long as we have the attitude to make it your home!! Life is too short and people with big dreams never should get impacted by petty people! Let the petty ones be petty and move ahead!

Our first Melbourne Marathon Oct 12th

I guess I have written enough about runs now.. or wait.. no. not enough.. :)
12th Oct was the Melbourne marathon and me and him did a good job. I loved the enthusiasm in the crowd and so much motivation for us to do better :) People from across ran as One. 'Run' was binding us all together as one.

No caste, no creed, no color, no gender bias and no age limits. I have seen 70+ yrs doing a better job than me. New mommies running and their kids n husbands cheering for them. People of different body types pushing their limits to run as one. The crowd and the zeal was way beyond any expectations.People dressed funny too, like buffoons, spiderman, fancy girls, and many more.

I completed my 10.2 km in 1 hr and 5 mins and he did 10.4 in 1 hr and 15 mins. :)
I had aimed to finish my run in an hour but the last 3 kms were tricky due to narrow tracks and the crowd. People tend to slow down than rush in the last few kms and I was a little stuck among crowd and couldn't do as I had planned.
we were around 12 of us from our company running together and that was the best feeling. all our practise runs together, our beach runs on saturdays, our breakfast sessions, all paid us :)

The biggest motivation to me was our CTO's daughter, a 12 yr old running with us on every saturdays. She did her 10k in an hour and 11 mins and I felt so happy and inspired by that young girl!

We had a nice breakfast together after our run and all we spoke of is about 'Run' and how each of us felt :)

I plan to keep running and so do many of my team members. Wish I get to run often.

My performance details:

Love
RP

Well this is my Longest Run till now!

Ok this sounds pretty weird that I just posted a week back saying I did a 7.4 km run but now I need to write one more as I touch another milstone.. Yeah.. On the auspicious day of Gandhi Jayanti I did a 8.6 km run in 1 hr and 1 min and I'm pretty thrilled and happy about it.. :) Lot of motivation from people around. everyone older than me.. and everyone does better than me. If I need to even feel the age that I am I need to run. And I love Running!!

Enjoying life every moment. Thanks to my Running.
I might get back here to post again when I break my own record .. Hope so!!


Love
R

My first Long run!!

Today I did the longest run of my life.. as far as I remember
I have been running off late and I'm totally enjoying it. I have done about 15km last week with about 5-6 km of walking

Today I did my longest sprint. 7.1 km in 50 minutes and felt awesome. It was an office group run and we are preparing for Melbourne Marathon which is comign up on oct 12th.
I was almost dead after the run but I recuperated. I feel happy that I am not injured or anything.. though last time around I had a severe knee pain after 2 days of running continuously.

Feel haapy to be able to run for long.. :) My desire to be fit till old age, is undying.. :P
Am glad am putting effort towards it..
My Strava details are here

Mary Kom and relevance to our lives!

What a heart touching movie it is.. Mark Kom. Hats off to you Mary and am in love with PC all over again. She again proves she can play any character the best. 
Such inspiring, motivational and ofcourse an emotional movie.
Most importantly it has a message for all married people.

Indian husbands should surely watch this. The support a husband should/must give is shown perfectly.

You want a wife who is a superwoman in all fields of life (whether you say or not you love it if your wife is a star in all fields)
As a working professional, as a wife, as a mother as a Daughter in Law, as a cook, a woman with talents and hobbies, a woman who is Fit, A woman with good GK and IQ, a woman who is financially independent, 
a woman who can drive, a woman who is presentable and speaks awesomely well without denting the image of the husband, a woman who is not a spendthrift and shopaholic, ahh my wife blogs.. here is the link.. thats a pride too..
The roles/expectations out of a girl are never ending.. All agreed and accepted, but as a husband the support and encouragement you give to your spouse is what is most important and this precisely is well shown in the movie and thats a defining factor for all the roles a Wife plays.

I'm glad I watched it with my husband and he agreed it is difficult to be such a husband.

Not just men, but its such a lesson to all women too, who are strong and committed to different things and play a great role in each of the fields. Life is more than just being good to all. Life is about your own dreams!

A spouse always makes/breaks a person. What we are or what we are not, whether a winner or a loser in life, the credit also goes to the spouse, 
but nevertheless the urge to do or to be is primarily our own duty and not the spouses'.

floating thoughts!

Identify the extremists and negatives and isolate them!

let go n take refuge in the quiet corner of ur heart!

My gift to my love

As most of my friends know, I was on a break from job for more than an year. Literally I hadnt bought any gift for him during this time as I would feel, how would I gift him when I am jobless. Though I had enough money of my own during this period, I still dint feel like buying/shopping.

But now that I am back to job after 1.5 yrs and this is my first job in Melbourne, I could buy a nice lovely running shoes for him with my first sal. It isn't an expensive one. It is about 9k inr, but it felt great that I could buy for him. The joy of being financially independent is beautiful, atleast for me. I am someone who hates to have any dependencies and specially financial dependencies.
Love the feeling!

My Plants

Finally the dream of having plants in my home has come true.
I had decided I would gift myself some plants on my birthday. Though it got delayed by a month, I finally bought some seeds, soil and pots and have planted Coriander, some flowers, spring onion, brocolli, lettuce, Basil, Tomato plant, capsicum and dwarf beans on 31st Aug.
Now I cant wait for them to grow but the seeds will take atleast a month to fertilize.
I happily water them daily and they are such an added beauty to my Balcony.

Hope it doesnt go flop and hope they all grow well.. If not anything its so lovely to look at them every morning!

Love

Namma Bengalooru!

No rains, high summer temperatures, pollution & population....& what not... 

I have never seen beyond 28 degree celcius during summers in Bangalore... gone r those days of my beautiful city.. now it's just over polluted... & over populated .. chopped trees....road rage... drying & dying lakes...never ending complaints and rantings about Bangalore..everywhere....  all thanks to the IT boom.. I only wish IT grows in other parts of the country n people get distributed... All the metros suffer coz of IT concentration! ... I wish every state has its own metro city which supports growth of IT, economy and also the state itself.. 

my thoughts are endless..sometimes on relations, sometimes on society, on cities, on developments,on useless things, on useful things.. what not.. my mind races with thoughts.. I wish I could hire someone to proofread my thoughts!! Sigh!

The phenomenal woman!

Editing this June 2nd post just to say I've written this when I was emotionally little weak.. coz of the recent rape incidents in India and the reactions of few losers towards the same!!!

Hate is a strong word to use!
But I like to say I hate people who think women are weak and uselss
I hate people Who are proud of every wrong doing of their son and say He is a boy he can do whatever pleases him.
I hate people who act women are born and married only to cook for men and I hate it even more when women think that way.
I hate that women have to 'fight' for their rights which are already theirs. I hate people who think A woman cant stand up for herself and say backoff to those who hurt her in any way.
I hate those who think a woman's life is all about how she is towards her relatives and society.
I hate people who preach how a woman should dress so she doesnt get raped , but the same dont teach the boys why they shouldn't rape.
I hate people who think asking the salary of a woman is fine but not asking the salary of a man.

A woman is as much a human as a man and she has the right to lead the life she choses. Yes I'm for women but it doesn't make me anti men.I love men too, the ones who live and let live.. I'm married to one.

Women! wake up!

Learn, unlearn, be independent, live your life to the fullest, make use of the life, make some earnings, encourage other women, avoid the bad women first, be learned, show some courage, make decisions for yourself, have fun! Life is too short to be treated as a slave for a man.

You definitely don't need a man to protect you, learn to handle your lives and learn to handle your hurdles.
Don't care a shit about people who make you feel any low.

A Shooting star!

This day (25th May 2014) is very special coz for the first time in my life I saw a beautiful shooting star.. 

had just heard of in stories but for real it looked unbelievable.. and even more special coz I saw it with my dear husband.. yeah I sure made a wish n hope it comes true :)

lovely experience!!! 

New gal in the City!

I have been in Australia for more than 2.5 months now and I have started loving the place already.
The unpredictable weather is definitely on the top of my list :) Uncertainties are always thrilling aren't they?
Initial few weeks I was very jittery and doubtful of staying here for long. That would ideally be the case for most new comers to any new city/country, unless you dislike your own place. Coming from Bangalore, stepping out of my comfort zone and having planned my entire move to Aus, I thought I had no liberty to crib in front of him.

Initially felt the city was slow and yes it is slow and life is not a race here. Imagine a Bangalorean saying any city is slow where as the whole of India cribs Bangalore is slow, laid back and boring (read night life).
It is indeed a slow and calm place and shops and malls shut down by 6pm, you see most people going back home by around 6pm, everyone has a smile on their face, people spend quite good time with family and the most important and encouraging thing is I get to see lot of oldies (may be I shouldn't call them oldies) running and jogging and being fit as a fiddle.

There is so much freshness in the air that just a walk around your own locality can make you happy and set your spirits right! The parks here are to die for. In about 2 months I have seen not less than 15-20 new parks. Yes this city is famous for its park where you have a jogging track, beautiful lawns, sitting area all around the greenery, eating area and kids play. I have not seen any kind of pollution yet. The air is stunningly fresh, there are lot of vehicles but no pollution (still wondering how). Its not just the marvel of nature but also the human effort which makes nature marvelous. Even the kids here dont make a lot of noise or scream or cry in public places which is definitely a blessing. But you get to see lot of kids around atleast 2-3 in a family :).Quite encouraging I would say!!
A beautiful park which has a lake too.One round around this park is about 5km. Evan a lazy person can carve to walk or run here!

There are libraries in every locality, where u can be members free of cost, use internet free of cost, borrow books from among 1000s free of cost. Awesome collection of magazines to read and borrow. There are daily activities in the library for kids. Rhyme reading, singing, puzzle activities etc for all age group of kids. Not just kids but there are awesome programs and engagements for the senior citizens too. Lot of acclimatizing programs for the migrants too. Lot of English speaking classes for those who aren't too comfortable with English.

Different eating options from cheap to budget to classy restros. Lot of Indian restaurants around are a life savior. I dont miss any grocery item as such as every suburb has an Indian store where u can get sambar powder to gongura pickle to pani puri chutney to dhokla and khakra. This place has welcomed and accepted the migrants really well. Among the major immigrants are the Chinese, Vietnamese, Koreans, Indians, Africans and also the US people. People are kind and also helpful when you are on the streets and are in need of any directional help.

You get to see all different races in this city equally happy and surviving hand in hand. Racism would crop up now and then, though I have not witnessed any till date but which big city doesn't have racism. I feel we Indians are the most racist of them all. Sorry but I seriously feel that after my observations. No place can be that perfect but this society is surely livable. This place was occupied by European migrants in 1700's and hence no one belongs here. Everyone is a migrant. So profound! All of us are migrants in this world!!!!

The infrastructure is awesome and there are different means of transport within the city. Bus, metros, trams all are available and are quite dependable. But still many use their own cars. One lovely thing is I see even 80 yr old driving their cars so comfortably that it makes me smile :) feels nice to see old people being so independent, fit and self reliable.
Speaking of the old people,there are lot of old age homes and the government is very helpful towards these people who are alone and have no family. Even an old man of 80 can lead a comfortable life with so much support from the govt. The govt surely loves kids, as a measure to increase the population there is lot of support and financial assistance from govt for new parents and hence the reason for me to see 3 kids in a family. Surely there is a good work-life balance.

Aus is surrounded by sea from all sides. I have visited the beaches atleast 10 times till now in last 2+ months. The sea here is deep blue and clean and the water is clear as crystal. we love beach so much that i'm sure my close ones know it completely. Even back in India, we would love to visit goa and I have been to goa 7 times in 4 yrs :) For those who still cant understand why we visit goa so many times, all I can say is I pity you. Its the best beach destination In India. Vacation and enjoying is not about counting the number of places you have seen. It is about going to your favorite place and falling in love with it totally all over again.

Coming back to the point, I have seen 3 famous beaches of Melbourne, St Kilda, Brighton beach and the Frankston sea beach and I totally loved all of them. You see people of all age groups enjoying on the sea.
Drinking by a sea side restro, running, kids playing and few happily fishing. Oh yeah I did have a culture shock when I visited the beach almost at the fag end of summers and saw girls lying on the beach topless and/or a bikini short. I was thrilled to see single women on the beach lying topless not bothered on who would look at them, confident enough that no one around would do any mischief. Isn't that cool for a city to be so safe and open. Being a girl, felt really good and happy about the place.

There is a forest area close by where I went with him and a couple friend for a forest walk. That too was out of the world and amazing with beautiful scenic views. pics below.

The city/CBD is quite a happening place and every weekend there is some event happening at the city centre (Federation Square). The victorian library (of 1800s) is a beautiful place and has an awesome collection of books from across the globe since 1700s. The victorian market is a 1800's market which is a must see and one of the ancient functional markets where farmers come in and sell there fresh vegetables and it is typically a mela environment. The CBD is the place where you see sky scarpers and you get a buzzing city like feel.
The CBD is surrounded by a river called the South Yarra river. its a main ingredient in making the CBD beautiful.

Lots of things to write and lot of  places to see. Wineries, great ocean road, forest treks, camping in the forests. Many more to do which I will surely start exploring as soon as we land a job!! Life is too short and I have lot of things to do :) Not sure how long I will stay here but I know I will make the most of my stay!
Write to you soon!

Check Check!!

I'm happy with the facts of life.. Infact all of us would be.
Living with my husband.. new circumstances, new experiences, new country, new people, new surroundings, new explorations, new places to see, new rules to follow, a total new phase of life and for someone who craves for newness in life every new and then its great. I felt even more happier and relieved after I read an article that people who do things differently and who try things out of their comfort zones and listen to their instincts are much happier than others who limit themselves to their normal lives.

Its crazy to keep changing life scenarios but I truly enjoy the dare devilry of my kinds. This devil creeps in me every now and then and hints me. Come on. Your life is so comfortable and boring. Do something which is different and gives you a reason to smile at life.

Happiness comes with some risk taking too. Though I know am not independently happy or may be I can be. I dont know. But I feel I depend on my family and few close buddies for my happiness and feels great to know they too are dependent on me. Thats comfort zone.

But every now and then I need a reality check.I need a check to reassure myself that am on the right track, with the right kind of people, doing things that are good for me, and ofcourse avoiding the ones who can be obstacles in my dreams. Thats why one can afford calculated Risk. I believe in taking risks which might or might not give fruitful results but life surely is fun with some uncertainties.

Every now and then I ensure to check if all I have and all I do is what I want. Some times being in comfort zones, makes us comfortable with some stupid unwanted people and things in life as we assume we cant proceed without them. We assume we cant proceed without things we actually possess right now. But taking a step back, thinking, letting go of few things and trying out life is what is very important. Some reality checks of our lives are mandatory infact at regular conscious intervals.

I'm on it, and I check on:

• The people who are with me in life for long run
• The things I possess
• The people who I chose to involve in my life
• My habits
• My living standards
• My needs
• My health and fitness
• My eating patterns
• My happy and Sad zones
• The job I do
• letting go
• Staying positive
• Reading lots
• Learning new skills

 and many more..

All of us have some formula for our lives and this one right now is working for me pretty well. And yes having these kind of checkpoints is very important to keep us on track and make us feel happy about ourselves. Because there are many people around who will want to demean you, and underestimate your abilities. But once you have your checks no one can ever put you down.

Thinking!!

Thinking what to write about thinking. I want to write about this to see how complicated and uselss my thinking can be at times.  I think quite a lot before doing anything. I have always been like that may be. My thinking leads to well planning. My thinking makes me clear on my course of action. My thinking at times also screws my mind completely. And those times I force myself to sleep for hours till I relax my mind.

Thinking too much is unhealthy I feel, atleast it has made me quite unhealthy at times coz I end up thinking too much.  I end up thinking the same things again and again. Yes I am blessed to do that. Specially on useless things and people who matter the least in Life. I let myself get impacted by useless thinking. Probably this kind of useless thinking is also because I have lot of time these days. I'm on a break from job for the last 7 months.May be this easy time adds on to the junk thoughts.
I call my friends without thinking twice, I thank people without thinking too much. I put no effort If I should be nice to someone. I talk my heart out to my dear ones without thinking. Lot of good happens to me because of my thinking.
But the sad part is when my thinking impacts me negatively. May be I'm getting into mood swings and I just want a reason to be sad or lie low and think bad. I end up nurturing my mind with all bad thoughts, sulk in the ugly thoughts, cry a bit, stay aloof for a while, sleep like a log all for no reason. I then force myself to talk to a dear one on the mood swings and they turn out to be my angels who help me recover from the mood swings by just speaking to me for few mins. :) The crave for some love and pamper makes me force myself onto someone for help and I do get it.

I read books or see some happy time pics or write something to pep up my mood and go on a jog or a long walk and try different things to get me back to my normal happy self. But at times I need someone to do the magic for me.
I had a small mood swing and a dear friend spoke to me and made me realize what a happy and bubbly girl I'm always.My husband reassured how perfect and nice my life is and said few nice things to just make me happy and smile :) Read a dear friend's blog who is just so wonderful at writing and telling stories. :)

I will continue my thinking and try to keep myself out of stupid thoughts all for my own good.
I'm just thinking, am I the only one to feel this way or is this a common phenomenon :):) 

Patience

Ok I seriously dont get the real, actual meaning of this..
All I have understood from my life is Having patience means taking more of shit from everyone with a smile on your face.. Yeah that is literally what it means..
To be happy and peaceful we need to have lots of patience and the best way not to have your patience tested is by being with your self and loving your self and avoiding the rest as much as you can. This is what comes out of my conked up head right now!

My First cup of Tea!!

Whatever time I wake up however busy my day has to be, one thing I ensure to refresh and reawaken my senses is to have my first cup of tea in my balcony on 8th floor. The cool breeze has definitely some great effect on me.
I see an empty ground right beside my house, where I can get to see lot of people, cows, sheep and many more. My concentration though is never on this empty space as I believe in looking beyond that to reach out to the morning clouds which give you lot of peace and lot of time to think positive about my day. I avoid seeing people for obvious reasons, its the time for my own self, for my own imagination and for my clarity of the day. I also avoid them for an ugly truth. Most people come there for nature calls early morning. I cant blame them as they are poor laborers or those kinds who cannot afford a proper toilet. Imagine a huge apartment with thousands of people in it who can face this ground and see whats happening. But still these guys have no choice :( And for this am not sure who all to blame.

My eyes fell on 2 little kids walking into this space, a boy around 6-7 and the girl around 3-4 yrs. I thought they were brother and sister going for their early morning task. I could not take my eyes off them for some reason. Later I saw they were roaming all around this big space while I waited them to settle down for their task :)

That tiny girl was running behind her brother while she found some kind of a huge plastic sheet or something. She was picking it up while her brother came and snatched it from her, bent it so he could easily carry it and he started running out of the ground. The tiny girl seemed angry, crying and was trying to thrash her brother. She followed him and on the way picked up some more tiny plastic sheets. I assume its a plastic sheet seeing from such a far distance.
Both of them ran, happily (I felt so), out of the ground and kept walking till I actually lost sight of them.

The open ground

What do you think they were upto? why do you think they picked up that sheet? Why would they even fight for that petty plastic sheet? what would it fetch them?

I kept thinking for a long time and felt may be they would sell it for 5 rs or so. May be they were trying to earn some money, help their parents or may be they were forced out of the house by their parents to go make their own earnings and hence the fight.
My thoughts were endless and my imagination was unstoppable. I was jittery, i felt I should have chased them to see what they were upto. End of it I was sad thinking of 2 tiny kids fighting for something so worthless in our dictionary, who should ideally be sleeping on their comfortable beds that early in the morning. Tears rolled down, I wiped them and felt that I learnt some lesson out of this incident.
And now with my first cup of tea I wish to see these kids around. This time may be I will chase them, probably offer them some good breakfast with me :)

Lessons are many to learn in life but how open we are to learning is what matters. My first cup of tea that day had turned out to be a learning session for me!!

Anger

I live in a high rise building and there is always some positives and negatives about staying in an apartment.
You have a lot of facilities and at the same time you have quite a number of things to put you off.

I love my home (though am on rent here) and have a lot of fond memories for life living in this place.

Speaking only of the non pleasurable things, You get to hear kids cry at all odd hours.. people partying over weekends till early morning.. dogs barking all the time (which I dont like), noise of tables and cots being pulled around, drilling and renovations and many such things. Never have I been so irritated but now I cant control my anger because there is some fat person on my head dancing daily for about 45 mins and this creates so much noise in every corner of my house..

Feels like some 100 kilo boulder is banging on our head daily.
Many calls, emails and request have gone waste. That special (read ugly) someone is hated by me so much that am growing older and irritated. Hardly I feel hatred and Jealous (M so humble you see) but the anger that I have these days for this person is hard to believe. If in Delly Belly style this person falls down into my house I might just hang her right there. Ok .. now lemme control my anger..

They say even God wants to join people who are ready to dance! But this dance has just got on my nerves and I feel like suggesting to this person to first hit the gym or jogging track, get into shape and then show off her dancing skills, probably I can tolerate few lesser kilos and definitely not this boulder.

People have so much attitude that they forget ethics and etiquette of living in a society like this and In our country requests and pleadings dont work and God knows what actually works here.

I might join for some Yoga or meditation classes to tolerate such nonsense in Life! 

My Boy!

A day passes by.. almost 11 hrs without talking to him...waiting and waiting all day..
 And I just feel "To hell with marriage..what would I have done in Life without LOVE.. "
Thank good lord!!!!!!!