Shades of Life!!

We always think that our life is in complete control of ourself, but only as time flies we realize nothing is in our control. All we can do is just let ourslef free to feel the experiences of life be it good or bad. All we can do is to be happy today and forever whatever the situations are.

I have seen different shades in my life. I used to madly love this guy and I knew very well that he too loved me. He could bring a smile on my face at any bad situations. Even while going through hell life was heavenly because of him. ALways felt sad to leave him and go home. But I was happy .. happy to a great extent. Now I'm married to the same guy, am super happy and the thought that I dont have to leave him behind every evening and go .. I feel blissful.. And this is after 3 yrs of marriage.

There has been a time when I always thought I just wanted to stay with my husband and no one else. But when I married I had my BIL with me. I was super happy and the experiences with him very just amazing. He became my best friend and I could just be myself with him and the same with him. My conception of being just with husband vanished then. Now he is away .. far away from me.. but am happy for him and happy without him too. I miss him lots and feel I wish he stayed with us and the changes in life dint happen.But thats life.. We move on.

Now I have one more BIL of mine who keeps visiting us and who makes me feel very happy. He is my Buddy.. My lil boy who cares for me and I care for him.. One day he too will move on but We will still be happy to have spent soemtime so closely and will cherish it all our lives.
I have extended family members who I have never met or met them just once, but I love talking to them and I feel good about them and we know quite lots about each other. Thanks for the social networking abilities.

I always had on my mind, I can never be happy being away from my mum. Now I speak to her daily and she calls me home and I say Ma I have lot of housechores to finish and I cant come this week, but you know what.. am happy, happy that my mum loves me and cares for me much more than anyone. I do miss her but I'm happy in my own little world of responsibilities.

There have been many friends whom I would meet daily and they are friends for life. But now they are far away, though we talk daily we meet only rarely. AT first I thought I cant live without them, now am still happy coz I know I love them and they love me.

There have been office colleagues, they are my friends and I have cried when they went away changing jobs or for some personal reason. I have had some best times with them and they are still in touch. I love them.. I still have few friends at work I know that one day they will move away but all I know is They are there somewhere and I will continue to stay in touch with the ones who I like..

There has been times when I just wanted to get rid of few people from life and always felt bad that they are around, but when they moved away I have felt thrilled and happy and sometime later I have become neutral to the situation which simply means they dint make me happy or sad. Their existense doesnt matter to me at all. Be it the so called friends, colleagues or relatives.

The bottom line in all these events of my life which keep changing constantly is, though the situations looked very scary and tough, I easily tend to move on and I'm always happy.. Except the few special ones other people and things hardly make any impact in my life. Its not an easy task to be happy always but for me it is. I thank my parents for giving me this awesome make. I'm born to be happy and I will be happy always!